Saturday, June 07, 2014

How I came to no longer believe there is a god (Brief)

When I was Mormon I thought I had a very strong, intimate relationship with my Heavenly Father. I talked to Him all of the time and I thought he spoke to me through impressions in my mind and feelings in my heart. The problem was those impressions in my mind and feelings in my heart had led me to believe the Book of Abraham was exactly what Joseph claimed it was. Well, it is crystal clear that the BoA is not what Joseph claimed it was. So, those impressions in my mind and feelings in my heart are at a minimum not a reliable way to find out what is true. It could be that those impressions and feelings are created by me entirely. If they were sometimes true and sometime false, I could not tell the difference because they felt exactly the same. Yet, through these impressions and feelings I experienced God and felt his love, etc, or so I thought. That started my questioning that maybe there was no god, maybe I had never experienced him, maybe he was nothing more than an imaginary friend. I reviewed my entire life history looking for anything definitive that I could cling to that would say, "here, here is something that strongly suggests there is a god". But, I could find nothing, not in my own life or the stories of what has happened in other's lives. I have read of near-death experiences, "miracles", "fulfilled prophecies", "answered prayers", etc. Of course, I have learned to think like a scientist and a skeptic, so stories that might be convincing to others aren't to me.

Then, I also started looking into the history of the Bible which makes much of it look made-up, too. I learned the logical issues that make it impossible for a god (if one exists) to be both all-powerful and all-loving. I learned about the problems with Pascal's Wager. And why the evidence really looks like no thinking entity intervened during the evolution of species or the creation of galaxies and planets. I really came to think that there is no need for the concept of god; it doesn't contribute anything to our understanding of how anything came to be. I came to believe that it is most likely that god is just a made-up concept like fairies and ghosts. I acknowledge that one cannot prove there is no god (or no fairies for that matter). So, there might be a god of some sort existing somewhere, but I highly doubt it.


yeti said...

I hear ya. I find believing in God extremely difficult. But sometimes I think life will be better believing in God. That doesn't make for a good argument, doesn't make belief easy, but I try. If you think it's not worth it, well, you may be right.

Hüffenhardt said...

Thanks for your comment!

Orlena Rojas said...

Put your trust in Jesus Christ alone and not man. You have to walk in faith. Faith is not feelings. Faith is believing in God that no matter how you feel or dont feel you will believe him at his word(the king jame8s version) is the best.But without faith it is impossible to please him: for he that cometh to God must believe that he is, and that he is a rewarder of them that diligently seek him(hebrews 11:6)

Satan has you right were he wants you. He wants you to stop believing in God. God loves you.

You need to repent of your sins and believe in Jesus Christ.

Start reading the word of God. KING JAMES VERSION.



Orlena Rojas said...

And by the way, faith comes by hearing the word of God.

Romans 10:17King James Version (KJV)

17 So then faith cometh by hearing, and hearing by the word of God.

Noriah Mandaza said...

There is great controversy and battle between good and evil , battle agains. Self disastrous than world war 1/2 or war in the middle east this battle is being fought in the mind between God and devil. Allow God to control your thoughts by praying n reading only the inspired word which is bible other authors might mislead.